LONELINESS IN THE CROWDED!

I am get rid of studying lesson, doing homework and everything , even life. Actually these are ones of things which I like most in my life. I like them no more as much as past. This weariness is getting increase more and more because my lovers are far me. I missed my family very much especially my elder brother, Nurettin. He is everything for me. He is my brother, my friend and even my father. If I needed whatever, he came to my aid. I have never loved anybody more than him.When he was doing his military service, I cried everyday since I missed him a lot. I can't put up with being without him. I felt myself very strong while he was together me but he is not anymore. I was left sitting high and dry. I don't know where and how I will fly. I need to get a tip from him. I need to see that he is supporting me. But this is not possible anymore. He is very far me. However still I know that he backs me. He always tells me that I must call him immediately, if I have any problems. '' Of course I will call you everytime , my darling brother. Otherwise how can I tackle with trouble of life .You are for me... ''